"I probably had two bottles of wine, and I was only 14."

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Nia also wrote of several instances where Abby allegedly made rude comments about Nia's body. "She would say, ‘Well, you know your people have flat feet,'" Nia wrote. "This struck me as ignorant; I know plenty of Black dancers with perfectly arched feet! Yet, despite the fact that she actually believed this ridiculous generalization was true, she’d threaten punishment for my perceived shortcoming. ‘If you don’t point that foot,’ she’d warn, ‘I’m gonna come out there and break it.’”

"Comments came directly from Abby and trickled down to some of the girls and their moms, criticizing my thighs, my butt, and even my muscular legs," she added. 

"At one point in Season 6, Abby talked about the size of my thighs in the dressing room," she continued. "She implied that I was fat because I was not working hard enough. This was just one of many comments Abby made to create an illusion that I was lazy or just not strong as a dancer. Viewers and some of my castmates ate that up without question."

"A partial list of expenses could include a $3,000-$12,000 monthly retainer for a publicist; a $6,000-$10,000 monthly retainer for a fashion stylist and glam team (unfortunately mandatory for the quantity and high-profile nature of events); $2,000 in monthly voice lessons; $500 in monthly dance training; $500 for updated headshots; $75 per audition for acting coaching (and I went on an average of three to four auditions per week); and so on,” they wrote, also explaining that their team “took approximately 35 percent in commissions” and “another 35 percent” went to taxes."

"In 1977, at age 10, I was cast on the TV sitcom Good Times. My character was Penny, an abused child in desperate need of love," she wrote. "I really didn’t want to do the show. I didn’t want to be away from my family. And being on television only added to my negative feelings about my body."

She continued: "Before production began, I was told two things: I was fat and needed to slim down, and because I was beginning to develop, I needed to bind my breasts. In both cases the message was devastating — my body was wrong. The message was also clear — to be successful, I had to change the way I looked."

"'It means we need to tie down your breasts so you appear flat-chested,' the wardrobe woman explained," she wrote. "So, each day of shooting, I went through the ordeal of having wide strips of gauze tied across my chest to hide the natural shape of my breasts. It was uncomfortable and humiliating."

She wrote, "I was pulling off the deceit. It was hard for people to believe I was doing that much drugs. I look at photos from that event, and I didn't even look strung out!"

Then, speaking about the wedding she added, "I probably had two bottles of wine, and I was only 14. That first drink gave me the self-confidence I had been searching for my whole life. But that set the pattern of the kind of drinking that I would do."

He told the story, adding that he met "three kings" who helped him out that night. One was a gas station attendant who offered Tom water and $20. Two, an Uber driver who brought him back to Hollywood. And three, the bartender at his usual bar who gave Tom a place to stay and a shoulder to cry on. 

“All of a sudden, the frustration burst out of me,” he wrote. “I was, I realize now, completely sober for the first time in ages and I had an overwhelming sense of clarity and anger. I started screaming at God, at the sky, at everyone and no one, full of fury for what had happened to me, for the situation in which I found myself. I yelled, full-lung, at the sky and the ocean. I yelled until I’d let it all out, and I couldn’t yell anymore.”

Tom also shared heartbreaking words his lawyer told him. “My lawyer, whom I’d barely ever met face to face, spoke with quiet honesty,” he wrote. “‘Tom,’ he said, ‘I don’t know you very well, but you seem like a nice guy. All I want to tell you is that this is the seventeenth intervention I’ve been to in my career. Eleven of them are now dead. Don’t be the twelfth.'”

The entire cast went to the hospital together. Naya wrote, "We sat there, his TV family and his real family, all mixed together in the waiting room, praying and trying to comfort one another. When the doctor came out to tell us that Redd had passed, he delivered the news to the entire group."

Jim Bob also revealed to Jill that he was paying her brother, Josh, for his participation in the show but stopped because he thought it was a bad idea. In an argument with her father, Jill recalled saying, "You treat me worse than you treat my pedophile brother!"

"After all, thirteen years as a filming family had taught me that everything has a cost. Plus, Pops’ lifestyle alone told us that the show had generated a lot more than the equivalent of eighty thousand dollars each," she wrote. She eventually got $175,000 from her father. 

It was also around this time that JoJo began self-medicating with Adderall and alcohol. 

She said, "When I was ten and a half I was sitting in the back seat of a car driven by a friend’s mother. She started smoking pot. I’d wanted to try marijuana for a long time, but I was afraid that if I asked, she’d say, 'No way, Drew. You’re too young.' However, she offered me some and I said, 'Sure, I’ll try it.'"

"I’d appreciated it when Oprah told me on her show that my sexuality was no one else’s business," she wrote. "And when it came to virginity, 'You don’t need a world announcement if you change your mind.'"

Jennette has spoken about being sexualized as a minor, coerced into drinking alcohol by a producer, and emotionally abused during her time on iCarly and Sam and Cat.

She turned down the "hush money" but admitted to second-guessing her decision. She wrote, “Nickelodeon is offering me three hundred thousand dollars in hush money to not talk publicly about my experience on the show? My personal experience of The Creator’s abuse? This is a network with shows made for children. Shouldn’t they have some sort of moral compass? Shouldn’t they at least try to report to some sort of ethical standard?”

He shared that he "hated" taking his shirt off for the 2008 movie Wieners. 

She added, "The one time I was offered coke, which happened to be by Paris Hilton, I turned it down." She even tells a story about the "third or fourth time" she dropped ecstasy and she ended up partying at the Playboy Mansion in LA and showed up hungover to a Maxim photoshoot the next morning.

Paris Hilton has never confirmed this story. 

"It makes you feel really, really alone. Like, you are the only person who has ever felt this way, and the only person who ever will feel this way, and if you just tried a little harder, you wouldn’t feel this way," he wrote. "But you do feel this way, because you’re alone. Yep, you’re alone and nobody can help you. In fact, it wouldn’t be surprised if you’re the only one with this infernal internal monologue. Look around you—nobody else seems to have this problem. It’s just you. But that’s not true."

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